((((((((((Cami)))))))))))))
My heart broke for you when I read this, because I understood some parts of it and it isn't fair, and it isn't right to be in so much pain - nobody deserves to feel that bad.
I don't hate you and I hope you eventually see that you shouldn't hate you either. People who hurt you are the bad ones, not you.
Much love. Send me a PM whenever okay?