I can't work full time either. I take seasonal jobs and work about 20-30 hours a week, take a few months for a break, and start up again if I can. If I go through a season I can't work, no big deal, I'll just wait it out and go back when I can. It's a difficult disorder in regards to working (in addition to, well, everything). By no means are you lazy, you are dealing with a serious mental illness that disables many who have it.