Hi,

I was recently told by my counselor that I have borderline personality disorder. Can a LCWS-R officially diagnose? (I have become skeptical of receiving and believing a diagnosis since I have tried so hard to get help, and have not really felt heard, and have given up and tried again so many times - it's not easy). She also has diagnosed me as having anxiety and depression. I've been diagnosed as having PTSD in the past too. It seems each person I've sought out help from has formulated a varied response, but has been similar. I've taken medication for insomnia as well, and for OCD.

I just am unsure how to receive the help that I need.

I attempted DBT, but was so uncomfortable and anxious, I dropped out. I would like to give it another try.

Right now, I am currently ending an 8 year relationship with my boyfriend because it just isn't working. He was told he has aspergers, so we researched BPD and aspergers and realized how incompatible we are when it comes to understanding emotions, it seems. I feel he doesn't care about me or see me. I feel neglected.

Today, his dad over the phone told him to come home. He asked why I don't have a job. And he told my boyfriend he did nothing wrong. (I overheard, but wish I didn't). I'm not the only one at fault. I'm not a monster.

I don't work, and haven't ever been able to hold a steady job. I have a really hard time leaving the apartment right now, and have always had a hard time leaving home and feeling okay in the world, especially alone.

I'm at a loss of what to do.

I feel stuck and lost in life.

Thank you for reading this long post, and if anyone has advice, I'd appreciate it! Thank you.