I'm also having a super hard time right now with wanting to be comforted and coming to the realization that I'm probably never going to have that, so I feel for you. I had a dream last week that I was performing small tasks and after every other task I would get tired and need to take a break. I would go to where my therapist was sitting and lay down with my head on his leg. There was no touching other than that and it felt like I was seeking comfort from him. I ended up sharing this dream with him even though it felt like a really awkward thing to tell him. Luckily he wasn't creeped out by it.

You're going through something unprecedented and I don't know why your therapist can't switch modes for the time being and just be supportive. Did he miss the week in therapist school when they taught support? He can return to analysis mode when all this mess is over.