i can only offer my understanding and compassion for your feelings. don't know if you are alone or w/other family members (spouse/partner/children) but my opinion only is if you have someone who you believe can give you even the smallest amount of support or understanding of this nightmare of our world, reach out. as part of my bipolar, i have a lot of obsessive/compulsivity and anxiety. i am married 34 yrs. my husband and i check in daily and ask what our level of emotion is (i.e., on 100% scale, if he says he's at 50%, the i need to give him the other 50% if i'm able and vice versa. because of other health issues (i'm 73) i'm most vulnerable to the virus so i do what i can to maintain my safety and safety of others. because of my o/c, i require that things be done daily on a regular basis and the rigidity and compulsive seem to keep me occupied...and distracted. we live in az. where there's plenty of sun and since our health club is closed we make sure to walk outside every morning...changing the route of the walk every day. because of my mania i no longer can read books and retain/concentrate, so aside from watching t.v. i make sure i listen to a podcast...BUT THE BIGGEST SALVATION FOR ME IS THAT I KEEP REPEATING TO MYSELF THAT I AM NOT ALONE; THAT EVERY SINGLE HUMAN BEING IN MY LIFE AND IN THIS WORLD IS GOING THRU EXACTLY WHAT I'M GOING THRU; for my mental stability, i've need to step back and tell some people who i am extremely close to, that their anxiety and paranoia are too triggering for me and that i am stepping back from being connected with them (many texts throughout the day); i grieve and miss that communication but for me, i need to be in contact with only those people who have similar levels of anxiety; otherwise i'd be out of my mind. find joy in the smallest of things regardless of what they might be. take it 1 hr. at a time. distract. take a shower/bath. listen to music. reach out thru FaceTime or whatever you can do even for a very brief connection. post your feelings here. YOU ARE NOT ALONE.