Thanks everyone. A therapist who discharged me said I could maybe find someone willing to help in a capital city. I did not have the funds for that as I had paid him so much.

In theory I could find one online now...

Labels are “diagnoses” that are imo inaccurate, they can be cruel and disparaging and some are not even in the current DSM or its equivalent. The doctor I mentioned who gave the reason of providers absorbing (“catching”) mental health disorders from their patients was the doctor who prescribed seroquel. She was kind with her words about me and tried to help, (within the constrictions of the beurocracy) but I did not believe her statement... it did indeed seem curious.

She had said I was “intelligent” but she did not credit me with the intelligence to easily notice her... half truths or untruths. There were more. But she did not harm me like a couple of other doctors did.