I barely have contact with people because of my social anxiety so I have only a person I can call friend, I mean a person I trust and I can count with and he can count with me. Real friends.
Other than that, I of course, value a lot the possible friendship I could make online because it’s the media I move in a more natural way. Due to I feel less inhibited and feel less pressure. The thing is I have noone of this last. I thought I had it but I should have done very bad that I don’t have it anymore.
In off-line world (I don’t like to call it irl because for me both worlds are real), I’m pretty much as this: When I meet or someone is introduced to me, I never ever think this person maybe interested in a friendship with me just the opposite, so I try to do the best at this moment for this person or people feel as confortable as possible and forget about future contacts because I see I can’t contribute anything.

On another side, my online experiences, provided me with an insight that support my idea of inadequacy on the offline word.

I know that it’s not reasonable to get to conclusion for a couple of example or experiences but I can’t avoid feeling myself a failure just now.