Hi bpd453. Welcome to Psych Central. Sorry that having friends is something you sometimes struggle with.

I think I would not cut off your friend but maybe ask how they are doing. The best way for me to have a friend is to be a friend to someone else.

The next best way for me is to be a friend to myself. Not sure if this would work for you but these may be of interest. For me until I really felt secure about who I am and accept me then a friend outside did not help.
How to be a Better Friend to Yourself

8 Steps to Like Yourself (More)

Tips for Building Self-Esteem