First of all, I’m sorry for what you had to go through in your childhood.
I’m not strange that you had to do a whole process to kind of conciliate with these hard experiences.

Thank you for your advises. I’m gonna take in. Especially the one about trying to understand what happened and understand the people involved in the situation. I think it can help me.
Still I’m having over and over again nightmares. All very overwhelmed and similar among them.
Thank you.