Well, I can definitely relate. I find that I have a really hard time being vulnerable with a therapist/doctor, so writing in a journal or something helps me a lot more. And because I've kept all my feelings to myself for so long, I get really exhausted (sometimes to the point of passing out) after writing something really intense/personal down. It takes time to get over your feelings, but it won't get better until you acknowledge them, at least to yourself.
Hope this helps.