I definitely relate to your experience.

Growing up, I didn't really like sports all that much. My mom signed me up for a lot of sports, but I didn't particularly like any of them. I also felt more at ease around girls, and most of my good friends are girls. It really is hard to deal with homophobic societies. I grew up religious: the specific stance was that being gay is OK as long as you don't do anything that's gay (kiss a boy or anything that comes after). It took me SO LONG to get over the idea that if I fell in love, then God was going to punish me for it. I'm doing much better now, but now I have a crap ton of trauma crap flaring up. (It feels like as soon as I get my life in order, something else has to tear it all apart again.) Just make sure you're taking care of yourself.

And I must say that I, too, am very intrigued by your username.