Not much has changed since I last posted. My session with my T went well yesterday. He was encouraging and helpful. He said I am having an existential crisis. This didn't surprise me. Being mostly bedridden has me wondering what the point of it all is, amongst other things. If I can't give I feel useless. Meditation is helping me make sense of it all, keeping me calm, and giving me the chance to explore imaginary worlds in my mind. Two hours a day. I should be a zen master soon. lol.

Today I drove to the beach in hope I could at least stand in the sand for a bit. Unfortunately all the carparks were full. It seems everyone in my city is driving to the beach to do there allowed exercise for the day. It used to be quieter. I live 5 minutes walk over a hill from the beach but I am so ill I can't even manage that walk without crashing hard for days. At least I got to drive along the ocean. It is so vast and beautiful.