So I screwed up convinced H to give me the debit card and bought over 30 books, He thinks it's okay if it keeps me busy. So I did the outline today. I'm going to work REALLY hard on this to turn a profit but even after I complete the curriculum I have to wait a year of editing and testing to see if we can even sell it. I don't think H cares about anything right now he's so depressed. It's a huge project. It should take me until August to finish this. I can do this. Right?

T was asking me all types of questions about it. I have to get the nerve up to ask my T about handling me with less/no drugs. She's the one that said it not me! I laughed and said no If I think the meds are at the right dose. I should have told her I don't want to take them. She was very understanding about my hair but brought up that I have a problem remembering to feed myself too. There were tons of times I could have spoke up. I just didn't want to be a kill joy. Plus it's much easier to hide you have a prepared statement over the phone.