Hey random, thanks for sharing your concerns with us here, I hope you're doing okay. I've been looking at your thread off and on for a bit, trying to formulate a helpful response, but... frankly, I got more questions than anything so I'll ask those. But first, while you might be obese, that doesn't make you ugly. Ugliness, imo, comes from within, and the people who are truly ugly could be (objectively) 10/10's but have the worst personalities and opinions on the planet. The people I describe are manipulative and cruel, and have no concern whatsoever for the people they hurt so long as it gets them what they want. You don't strike me as such a person, so give yourself a hug from me please.

So, questions! Do you live in a religious household and is that the source of your concern over being caught (and being hurt! be safe please!)? You mention your depression a fair bit and that you're on medication, is there anything else you're doing to work on this problem? Your obesity, you're clearly down on yourself over this, are you trying to exercise or change your eating habits to address this? (btw, don't beat yourself up if you're not, that won't help you, it will just feed your depression) Finally, are you taking measures to protect your anonymity while you are making porn?