Thankyou for replying, it really helped.

Im feeling alot better, and alot calmer tonight.

I know Im gunna be like this for a while until Im used to fighting off urges. I often listen to music/read books etc to keep me comforted, but I think sometimes its just too much and I just need a good old release.

Im glad I didnt though nearly a month now yeahhh

thanks again, babyg xxx