A bit from Wednesday (just had half-session/check-in):
About 5 minutes from the end, I started crying. I said, "I'm not sure if you've noticed, but lately I've been crying when it's close to the end of session. It's just hard to say goodbye and go back to the real world. I really appreciate all the support you've given me lately." Dr. T: "Awww." Me: "It's just sort of like you're here on my computer screen, then, poof, you're gone. The ending is more abrupt." Dr. T: "No walking into the sunset." Me: "Yeah, and I don't have the transition of a drive home, it just ends, and that's it. I'm immediately back to my life."


I said something else about video sessions being different. Dr. T: "And this medium doesn't come naturally to me." Me: "You seem to be doing OK with them." Dr. T: "Fake it till you make it, I guess." Me: "Yeah." Dr. T: "This has all been very hard for me, too, because some of my clients are really struggling right now, and this is all that I can give them." (referring to video sessions). I forget what I said to that, but it touched me (I'm sure I'm one of the clients he's referencing), knowing that it's hard for him as well, feeling so limited. Me (still crying): "I know we have to stop. Maybe we need to talk about some of this more next session." We confirmed time of session (this afternoon). Dr. T: "Good luck with everything. Take care." Me: "You too."