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Originally Posted by BirdDancer
Your posts in this thread are particularly significant to me, @ FluffyDinosaur. I mean, they are making me realize things about my own daydreams that I hadn't thought of.
I wonder if the daydreams during "feel good times" could even be related, to a degree, to the desire many of us have for the more elated hypomanic/manic feelings? Most all of us here know the appeal and sometimes yearn for it. Maybe it is us creating that, to a degree? This may sound silly, but often in the past, I have set off on what I call "pursuits of pleasure". Sometimes they actually even trigger hypomania/mania. Or, is it the other way around?
I.too, have some issues trusting and connecting with people (particularly other women) because of events that happened during my teen years (surrounding my first major bipolar episodes). It's a long story. When you wrote about this, it shocked me how we have this in common. Obviously, I don't know your story, but it created a connection for me, all the same. Thank you!  |
Thank you, and it's quite special to me as well to see how many similarities there are in our experiences. Like you, I've also observed this connection between the nature of the daydreams and (hypo)mania, and I've never been able to figure out with certainty which triggers the other. It's kind of similar for depression. In the past it sometimes made me feel like a fraud, as though I was just "making up" my bipolar episodes by kickstarting them with the daydreams somehow. Lately I've been leaning more towards the explanation that the daydreams are a result of the episodes, because I keep noticing how a (hypo)manic or depressive episode can change my entire outlook on life, even if objectively nothing in my life has really changed.