hugs scarlet. i'm so sorry you're struggling, i'm struggling too, coincidentally my h started talking yesterday about buying another car and selling mine i'm like whaaa.... dude.... why? i literally go nowhere. my puddle-jumper-beater-car is perfectly fine for a trip to the store or in case I have to go a dr appointment or something and most importantly is 100% paid for. I'm worrying about L still as I haven't heard from her in 2 weeks so I don't know if she's still sick or worse, feel like i can't email her to find out cuz of how 2 weeks ago she said she'd stay in touch; and i have that CT scan next week i'm worrying myself over, and work is a mess right now too with them changing so many things at the worst possible time to make changes. i'm coming undone over here all the way around and it ain't pretty.