Entitled sounding is one of the least offensive things he's been called...even on here I think. L and I have talked about why I choose to stay with him even after all that I've been through. She wishes he would do more for me: cuddle without strings attached, provide me emotional and financial security, etc. I'm not trying to defend him, nor throw him under the bus. However, he is putting us at more financial risk. We only have enough money to last the rest of the year. That's it. Selling his Tesla would allow us 6 more months of money. But he wants to get a loan or lease a new $30k car with no income and okay credit. The best interest rate they could get us today was 12%. The deals they advertise are lies unless you have high income and an 800+ credit score. Its bs. But H is jumping the gun. Carmax, which is where we could sell the Tesla, is closed until further notice. So buying a car now doesn't help us at all.

It just stresses me out real bad talking about finances. I know how bad it is. Homelessness is just around the corner. That is really scary. I won't do it again.

I left L a voice-mail as per our agreement. But I have session with her tomorrow at 1pm, so she probably won't call.