My school started offering counselling last month. We're a smaller campus. It was always available at another location, but with travelling time it didn't seem worth it. They're doing it online now with a clinical psychologist. Last month was fully booked. but there's spaces I booked for Wednesday, but might cancel later on. The advantage is that I don't have to pay.

I feel like R is pushing me to talk about things I don't want to, with his wasting your time comments and when I asked for clarification what boundary I had broken, he said he wasn't going to get drawn into this. But said getting him to selling him a sketch when I'd asked jokingly if he buy one of my sister's drawings. That last session was last session and I had this time now but I wasn't.

Also just hanging up on the dot even if I might still be crying heavily seems cruel.