Hi guys!

Ive just come across this site and thought it might help me. I was using cocaine, e's and prescription pain killers for the last 4yrs but in january i began to try to really give them up once and for all. I spent thousands of euros in the last 12months on cocaine and have lost numerous friends. My sister and 3 of my best friends have warned me if i start using again thats it. I tried really hard but began suffering from insomnia and depression the last few month so i just figured it was easier to go back on the drugs. The last few weeks I have not been taking drugs as much as I used to and I think I have it under control, i don't think I have a problem, how can i tell? I'm just really confused and don't know what to do because I can't tell my friends, sister or doctor im taking drugs again, they are so proud of me but in my mind im thinking what they don't know wont hurt them! Just wondering if anyone is going through the same thing?

Thanks for reading

Caitlin