I'm starting to realize my partner may be having an affair with someone I know from our neighborhood. I don't know this as a fact, and due to all the lies and secrecy, it's possible I'm over reading this.

It occurred to me early this morning. This lady is really nice but he claims her head is "all over the place". I ran into her recently and had small chitchat with her and her friend.. mainly about the coronavirus and such. She, too, suggested she was not in a good place. She's also a drug user. I'm not sure to what degree. My partner pointed that out, as well. She works in the same company as we do (small world) and my partner had always told me her position was the same as ours.. just not full time. The other day she told me herself what her role is and it's not at all what we do for a living.

I can read into a lot of scenarios and be "suspicious" but I'm actually not bothered by it. I like her and feel for her. She thinks highly of my partner for "helping her out" when she was a teenager. I'd say there's roughly 15+years age difference between them.

Anyway, he accused me of giving up on our "family" and being with someone else when I opted to take our dog for walks more regularly. Isn't that what abusers do? They blame you for something they are doing instead? It's definitely a pattern of his.

I woke up and feel conflicted but surprisingly in a good mood. Today is "family day" and we'll be having a picnic..