You might have clinical depression, however only a psychiatrist can say for sure. If you have a GP you can request a referral to see a psychiatrist. Do you have health insurance? How good is the coverage for mental health issues? Sorry if this is a bit of a cop-out, but when it comes to diagnoses it's impossible for us to tell as we're not doctors and even if we were you can't be diagnosed over the internet. The thing I can say is that about your family, many other people have a lot of misconceptions and/or ignorant beliefs about mental health. It is certainly not a weakness or a character defect, and it's definitely not a choice. It's a medical condition that requires medical treatment to resolve. A lot of people have misconceptions and/or ignorant beliefs about mental health that they would never have about other medical conditions, like cancer or asthma. If people in your life aren't as supportive then you may have to reach out to find people who are, and there are definitely others who will be supportive in the world, not everyone though.