Hi pianopenguin. I replied to your other post

Since you are reaching out to people with psychological professionals at your school, maybe establishing a relationship with a professional not related to your school might give you the support you need without the risk of adversely affecting your schooling.

Online support groups can be a big help. Here is one site Online Support Groups - Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance

Another option is for you to reply to this post and or PM me with the thoughts you are having. I have been dealing with my friend's bipolar incidents of every type. I am not a professional but a peer supporter. I am online almost every day so if you want to pm me here about your thoughts, I am fine to hear you and respond compassionately. If that will be a help to you, then feel free to send me a personal message by clicking on my member name out to the left.
@CANDC