Hi, I had this too, it was really painful after a while and people even used to comment on how I never went to the bathroom when out or at work. I have to hold my breath For a while and then somehow I just can’t help but pee. I don’t know why that works for me but it does, most of the time.
Can you practice being safe in your body in on the toilet, even when you don’t have to pee? Sometimes I have to check out new places/toilets before I can ever think of using them.