[QUOTE=~Christina;6822866]
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Originally Posted by Miguel'smom
I don't think anyone realizes how ****ed up I am. If I lay everything out T won't want to be my T anymore. I NEED to become more self reliant.[/QUOTE
Well... I think the reason they dont realize how bad you are is you consistanly under report ... So how can you expect anyone to really know how to help you , they do not have a crystal ball...
I understand the want to be off meds I do. but... when was the last time you had a stretch of stability on meds??? if you cant find stability with the help of meds how can you imagine it happening if you are trying it on your own sans any meds?
You deal with insomnia and Sleep is one of the most important parts of finding stability for people with any mental illness.
Most people on meds and certainly off meds need to have a very structured life to help maintain balance . Are you willing to lay out a structured daily life and truly stick too it? No putting on headphones and going to bed and staying?
As you know I am off meds over a year now.. and I am doing okay. I have lots of white knuckle moments.. But I have a daily schedule. I clean every day, I cook every day, I shower every day, I go outside daily. I have so many things that are just part of my day, and they are Law for me.
I want you to find stability I truly do.....but over the years you cant continue the daily follow through needed.. How can you change things this time to have a better long term outcome???
I hope you feel better soon and can make positive changes in your life for you and your family  |
hey mm,
Good post from ~Christina. I do not do all the things that ~Christina mentioned but they are important, or alternatives that are part of the day instead of... I'm not sure what your schedule/day consists of.
If you keep a lot of things from the therapist, knowingly, you aren't making the best use of the therapy space.....
I suggest you start by implementing one or two small positive changes say tomorrow and the day after? Is that doable?
I am suggesting the opposite to what a sub optimal therapist ''suggested'' for me.... as in ''goals and time limits'' - yes that was a trigger/trap he set for me (and no I am not paranoid... I've analysed that dude like he ''analysed'' me...)
Later on when he was bored of the supply I was giving him he upped the triggers.... he ''suggested'' some things out of the blue which were not ''achievable'' overnight as he demanded.
So as I said start putting a bit more structure into your day, try to find a couple of fun things to do each day and either post them here or tell the therapist. okay?
