I feel ok, or maybe better than ok. I might actually feel good. My skepticisms are being jerks and I don't trust my emotions. Yet, I might be in a good spot right now. I feel relaxed, calm, and ok with life, even though it's in a really mixed up and messed up situation. I don't know what changed but I'm not going to force finding out. Presently, I'm watching one of my favorite movies for the nTh time and relaxing, though I'm up a bit late. I want to ride my bicycle again. I want to learn new things. I want to exercise again, for the first time since very early January. I need to be able to meditate, but I can't relax enough physically for that right now.
I'm kind of in love with Laura San Giacomo, ok ok, really it's only a celebrity crush because of her roll in this movie. And no, it's not any of the movies that made her famous.
I'm going to sleep soon. But, I want you to know that it can be better