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sarahsweets · Apr 21, 2020 at 05:56 AM

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Originally Posted by shovelhead

Thanks for your replies, childofchaos & sarahsweets! I realized last night after I logged out..that my thread here sounds really selfish & stupid, cuz of the worldwide pandemic happening! So my apology & that's why I never start threads, cuz I mess them up & need to reword stuff.

Dont apologize! We all have troubles pandemic or not. In fact those of us with addiction or mental health issues are suffering alot during this lockdown and social distancing. Since you said you live in isolation, would you consider getting professional help? I ask because based on what you have shared I believe that if you suddenly stop drinking, you could go through withdrawals that are life threatening and dangerous. You say you drank so much that you fell and knocked yourself out. That is a huge red flag. Let me share something with you.
I had a friend from college, who was a terrible alcoholic. It kept getting worse and worse until our friends didnt even take his calls anymore because they were angry incoherent calls that were combative and beligerant. He was able to isolate and work from home so that he could drink all day and night. He had lots of close calls including falling through a glass coffee table and going unconscious but he refused to go get help. 5 years ago his sister went to check on him and he was dead. His cause of death was listed as "complications due to alcoholism". He was 40 years old. It was surreal to go to his service and see all our college theater friends that I hadnt seen in 18 years and it was sad because without the alcohol he was a brilliant person. My point is you do not have to be old or sick to die from alcoholism. I am 45 now and I do not think I am old and dying at age 40 is definitely not old. I am in AA and in the last 8 years since I have been sober I have lost 6 people as a result of alcoholism. And that isnt even considered a lot when you compare it to others that have been sober for years. Are you interested in stopping drinking?
I forgot to write...I have been isolated for 7+ years already! I live in the desert. So I've always been isolated. Late-stage alcoholic is end stage alcoholism, before its going to destroy organs, etc. Early stage, middle stage & late stage. I've read about in books written by doctors. Yeah I would go thru withdrawal & tremors. The last time I drank alcohol, I slipped on my ceramic tile floor. I fell on my head & knocked myself out, unconscious. And I had a big gouge cut in back of my head area. I only quit cuz I was forced to, living out here in empty desert. Stores are far away & I lost my drivers license from an OWI. Drunk driving. Today I feel better & not even thinking about alcohol. Yeah drinking really destroyed my life. I'd be stupid to return to that lifestyle. I really wanted to clarify this thread is a mess. And I hope anyone reading is safe & healthy during this pandemic. I'm lucky I have a roof over my head & food, etc. right now. Yet I'm complaining about alcohol, like an idiot. So please forgive my non skills with posting. Have a good Sunday, everyone. Thanks again for reading & responding.[/QUOTE]