I seem to be posting alot.. so very sorry... am just so physically sick...

What do you think? Do you think that it is time for us to quit therapy?

I mean... would life be "happier" for me?

I guess.. I don't know anymore.. because I have been in therapy for 23 years.. and was DXed... with DID almost right away...and I made a committment to stay in therapy until my son was raised -

not because of the DID... just... because of my own terrible childhood abuse.. and I wanted to be the best Mom.. I could be...

So... is it time?

Lately... really all I hear out of my therapist is "integration"...

It occurred to me tonight.. that perhaps I am putting too much energy into.. this process called intergration... and not reserving my energy for living...

Because of my physical illnesses... I have only so much energy.. so perhaps.. I need to use that "little" energy I have for making the remainder of my life... more enjoyable...

I mean... really if I am finally intergrated.. and 100 years old.. and haven't enjoyed life... then what does that say???

you know????