I was wondering if anyone else has CPTSD as well as bipolar and does not/cannot take meds. I am mostly ''doing ok'' but sometimes I am not doing ok

The usual advice would be to contact someone irl I guess. There are a few people I could contact. Most of them have not been helpful to me, at all

Thank you to everyone here for the wonderful support you give. I appreciate people in this forum.


I was also wondering if anyone is familiar with the concept of the four f's - in CPTSD.

Has anyone read Pete Walker's book?

I hope this isn't off topic for this forum. I think others have CPTSD also (?)

fight
flight
freeze
fawn

I think I have reacted to triggers with all four of those at times. I guess all of us are a work in progress. I know I am..

I am grateful that each day is an opportunity to be an improved version of me. I count it as a success that I am not abusive like my parents were. They were very much not in touch with their feelings and projected a lot of negativity onto me which did not belong to me I try not to do that to people. Maybe I do sometimes though (?) I know that Papa bear does not find me to be ''difficult'' except when I am maybe hypo, he does not like talking much and although for a female I do not talk a lot, he still finds it tiring so I have to muzzle myself a lot.... this has been the case for a long time (not related to the recent... situation which is obviously affecting everyone )

He has actually been a bit more talkative, lately, sometimes... so I guess that is a silver lining. Maybe the fact that I am working on my communication skills (I have more tools now to do so....) is helping. I can spot the signs more easily when he is starting to get overwhelmed... so I go into another room if necessary. In fact this happens a lot. He tends to ''shut down'' when in ... this is going in a direction I do not want it to go in.

ETA the therapists I have seen irl have not been helpful. I have mentioned this before I think we were not a good fit. Also they were both very judgmental, one of them excessively so As I am sensitive, this did not help me, at all. They also did not discuss any misunderstandings that we had had in a previous session... they simply said that I was ''taking things out of context'' -- maybe I was, but since there was no discussion I did not find that helpful. I think there was simply a denial of the very negative, blaming things they had said. If I was talking to a therapist now who said any of those things I would respond very differently... I would terminate the therapy if they continued with the blaming negative statements and were not open to discussion with me...

love to all