Dear stahrgeyzer,

It is really heartbreaking what you are going through. Having once been in a psychiatric hospital for depression I can really identify with what you write about. It is so stressful and distressing to be cooped up inside and unable to live one's normal life. Wish I knew what to say that would be helpful. Hopefully others here with more knowledge, insight and wisdom will have some good ideas. So sorry for not being able to be helpful to you in your time of misery!

Sincerely yours, Yao Wen