My talk with my therapist went well. I dumped out some of my thoughts regarding my marriage. I’m still depressed but I don’t feel as anxious now that I got that off of my chest. I didn’t talk about the one thing he did to me, I’m still processing that. I didn’t mention my poor decisions regarding medication use/abuse. I almost did but I didn’t want her to worry. She asked me if I thought I could go two weeks or if I’d rather schedule for one week. I opted to schedule for next week just in case my head is still not in the right space.

Turns out that my pdoc appt is not, in fact, in May and it is actually next Tuesday. So that’s good. I told my therapist that I don’t think meds are useful for situational mood shifts and she said they can be used as a crutch until the situation is brought under control. I suppose she’s right. I went on Wellbutrin when I was going through depression due to stress back in September and I wAs able to get off of it a month or so later after the source of the stress was resolved. So maybe. I’ll see how I feel next week.

I just need to keep processing the things that happened in my marriage with my therapist. And keep processing this quarantine. I’ve barely been on Facebook at all today. I should just delete the app for awhile.