Im glad that your session with T was helpful.. Yes these are very trying times for everyone. So have more compassion for yourself and how your feeling overwhelmed..

Do you know why your curious about the health of your first marriage? Are you worried that the relationship with RS is much healthier and worry it might not stay so ? Im just trying to understand if you can identify whats triggering the thoughts about your first marriage.

Social distancing is just awful.. but its needed to keep everyone safe.. Im sorry your missing your grandparents Maybe they can sit outside and you can wear masks and sit 6 feet away and share a meal?? I think we all have to get creative to find ways to connect while still being safe...

I know you stopped your Haldol a while back did you restart it? Sure meds can't fix situational stuff but in other ways it helps us stay more grounded.. Just a thought ...

Hope you find some coping skills that can help you reduce anxiety and feel better