Finally got the courage to leave my apartment. 90 minutes on the bike. I am obviously still sick, as I had some difficulty breathing, which is a complete joke for me at that distance. But, oh well, at least I got out and left my building and did it. That was a mental health accomplishment for me. Been quite paranoid.


Pdoc on the 28th. A lot to discuss. What to do about this continuing psychotic crapola. Maybe Clozaril. Not sure. Also, have to talk about whether this almost 8 weeks of upper respiratory/badass allergy symptoms is due to my Provigil. I think it probably is. I will have to stop it, if that is true. Back on the Adderall, maybe. Far prefer the Provigil, absent side effects. We'll see.

Am officially looking for a doggie. My (few) people here all think it might be good for me. Be soothing, since I have been struggling quite a bit over the last 7 or 8 months or so. Rescue dogs are in very short supply. COVID has caused zillions of adoptions, which is awesome. Might just have to actually buy a dog, which was not my plan. More research needed, but man, a lot of those dogs are already adopted. Good for them.

Hugs and love!!!!!!!!!!!!