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Originally Posted by BirdDancer
I'm starting to feel unwell, mentally. A bit unwell physically, as well, but that is likely linked to the mental.
I am so confused by my therapist. I'm starting to dislike the video meetings, immensely. I'm not even looking forward to the upcoming one with my psychiatrist, but I might need him now. He feels so extremely far away, and yet he is still in his office during those meetings. Literally just a long walk or short drive from me. If only I could step through the computer screen to that former dimension.
I feel the beast developing in my head, taking over me. It's an ugly mean beast. I know it and sometimes bob up above the water for breaths and mild pleas for help, but keep getting pulled under again. What's around me sometimes feels a little surreal. I need to break free. I need more mental clarity.
Yes. Something is suddenly not right. Not right. Not right. Not right. Not right. Not right. Not right. Not right.
Not right.
Is this psychological or a seizure? Have I been having many seizures lately? Some signs are there. I don't want to tell anyone about this suspicion. And I could be wrong.
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Sorry to hear you're not doing well, BirdDancer.
Is there any reason you don't want to tell your pdoc about your seizure suspicions? He would be able to tell you if your experiences are psychological or not, and that can give the hint that maybe it's something else (e.g., seizure? maybe not even that).
I'm not sure what to say about video meetings. I know it's a difficult situation for many people on this forum, so you're definitely not alone in that.
