Tonight I'm having a really rough time. I posted about what's going on in the Depression forum (I feel completely abandoned right now). I have the urges--getting stronger--and I'm trying really hard not to cut.

I've been a cutter for over 17 years now...I don't even remember the first time. I've romanticized my cutting (or at least that's what they keep telling me) and don't know if I ever wanna quit. It's just knowing I have that option always open...I feel safer that way.

I just want the urges to go away!