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Samantha, thank you so much. I was so riveted that I didn't even notice that it was kind of a long post.

I think I'll always have a part of me that wishes I were female. In the 0% to 100% spectrum, I'd say I'm a pretty solid 50% (and by that I don't mean gender neutral). I've never completely identified with the male role and there's a part of me that I'm beginning to recognize always identified with the female role. And I've always known that I'm bisexual (at least, for as long as I've thought about such things) so I've long put that issue to rest.

This thread, the research I've done recently, and time I've taken to think has really helped me. I'm feeling much more comfortable with my own thoughts and feelings now. I need to figure out how I want to deal with some of this but I've stopped worrying about what any of it means. I'm me and both my inner male and female are pretty much happy with that.

Though I'd still give anything to be a woman for a few days.

Cyran0

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Cyran0, first, thank you for your kind words. I try to keep things short and to the point as much as possible. I'm glad you found things helpful.

As to being a woman for a couple of days, I'm willing to bet that it probably wouldn't be nearly as interesting as you might imagine. I get flack for this all the time, but I'm here to say that the journey was less about gender or body than it was about freedom.

What I've noticed most about being all girl, inside and out is how little I notice gender anymore. What used to be a painful constant hell is now, well like breathing. It's what's not there that is more than what is. By that I mean heart, mind, body and soul I'm one person now istead of the constant conflict and pain.

Couple of days you might find interesting, but I bet once the novelty wore off, you'd find it as painful and conflicting as I did trying to be a guy. It's not even any one thing, it's not one huge problem alone (having the the wrong bits) as much as it is the HUGE mountain of problems that feel like one is being crushed every day of your life.

Anyway, I'm glad I could help.

Blessings,

Sam