Hi,

When I first came down with a mental illness, I was led to believe that my family was in jeopardy. That if I gave away my belongings and did nothing with my life, didn't eat food, that I was keeping my family safe.

My mom would cry they didn't understand what I was doing.

It led to hospitalizations medications and a destroyed family.

I wish someone slapped me and told me not to change keep all my belongings and asked what particularly was happening to show them, to know I would not be judged for my answers or thoughts, to be honest.

While this maybe far from what your experiencing, in all of my belongings I got rid of was also bits and pieces of my sanity, my innocence. These are the building blocks of the civilization weve created with out them we cast ourselves out.

Just remember these feelings of yours will pass don't lean too much on to them. Learn some from them but do not abandon your life the carefree person who owned those items you mentioned wasn't depressed or the way you described at one point or another, hold on to that person your fighting for him her.

I don't know maybe you took something away from that, Im sorry for how your feeling.