YOu don't even meet this person for a month, right? My T has to put in a request but there's lots of times she has wanted me to go to crisis pdoc. By the time she "sees" me today I will have been up for well over 2 days. Plus I have to tell her things that I've been putting off for over month because I don't want serious conversations. We'll yet again have the medication talk .. I "see" my pdoc in 19 days for the last time. I feel fine.

I'm going to pull another all nighter if I can't finish part of my project before bed. I doubt that little pill will do **** to me right now. I'm against swallowing anything right now including meds. I ate today a piece of pizza. I pretty much swallowed it whole and ran away. I know I'm in weirdness but I feel fine. I don't know how long it will take to see the new pdoc I'm hoping over 2 months. So I can see my pdoc before changing. It really depends on how she takes what I say today and my bargaining skills how fast she has me see a pdoc. Other times she has offered appointment during appointments. However she has always respected that I like and trust my pdoc. Now I don't have that. I'm worried that it'll be first available pdoc. That they'll tell my husband "if she refuse to swallow this every day for the next X. Then just take her to the ER." Pdocs have done that to me more then once. I'm not a danger to anyone. I'd rather wait for my pdoc or one that will work with me.