I can't remember your income situation or if I said this or not, so please excuse me if I'm repeating myself (as it's not intentional)...

Do you qualify for community mental health programs? Many cities in the U.S. will have community mental health centers where they offer free or low-cost services to patients who cannot afford them. Even if you live in a rural area and there isn't a community mental health center in your town, there is a chance one of your neighboring towns has one. It's worth checking them out.

If you do not qualify for community mental health programs, there are always free support groups. fern46 had posted some support groups (e.g., DBSA) that are currently offering online group sessions during this "crisis." Free groups are always great. PLUS, there is the Crisis Text Line you can contact. Just to be clear (since not everyone knows this), the Crisis Text Line isn't *just* for suicidal ideation or bad depression. You can also text them if you're having a bad panic attack, psychosis, etc.. They're just there if you need a listening ear, and they can point you to resources they think you might find helpful.

I think support groups may be a good option for you. I mean, you do like this site, don't you? It sounds like you get a lot of support here, which is awesome. And with DBSA, etc., you can talk to real people too who are going through the same thing.