The thought of the people who I know love me, my future, and all the things that therapist and counselors tell you to think about when considering ending your life aren't enough to make me want to stay anymore. What do I do now? I've sought help, I've talked to the people who I consider to be closest to me, I feel so alone, I'm so tired of fighting this pain. Even my boyfriend who I also consider to be my best friend seems to not want anything to do with me anymore, despite what he says...his actions don't back it up. I thought I was better, healed, on my way to discovering myself, loving myself, but right now I feel like i'm back at square one. Depression is my demon, and I'm tired of fighting it. Is anyone out there? Can anyone hear me? Hear my pain? Relate? I need hope, I need motivation for me to keep going. Advice? Anything.