Hi there,
I suffer from depression too and anxiety right now hi, I’m sitting on my front porch watching the wind blow through the trees and seeing the blue sky and birds fly by. . It helps me. I’m also listening to encouraging affirmations you can find on YouTube or make a couple of your own for free on an app called ThinkUp you can listen to your own voice saying the affirmations you choose on loop to uplifting music. And breathing the fresh air is nice especially with the wind outside.

I think it’s beautiful that you’ve given yourself a chance by coming here and posting for help. Hope this helps you, here to help