Selfish Selfish SELFISH! I got an email back from the section 8 person. She says, in part, that if N3 moves out, he absolutely cannot move back in with me. And further more, I need to move from this 3 bedroom to a 1 bedroom elsewhere. Elsewhere because the rent is going up AND my portion of the rent (as opposed to section 8s portion) is going up, too. And so I'm just going round and round with N3 and its freaking me out. I feel like people are throwing heaving things at me over and over again. And N3 wants to move this summer but I just can't make that work financially or because the apartments themselves probably are still closed and who knows when they're opening again, so I can't just get up and go see apartments. If the rent goes up, section 8 is NOT going to cover it. Period. I'm so stressed out about this. He wanted to go to an interview at the dollar store instead of work at McDonald's, but I said that's a stupid move- less money, fewer hours- and refused to take him. He's not too upset about that. In fact, he's practicing the piano here next to me because he hasn't and he has a recital coming up next month and it needs to be memorized and he hasn't practiced for months!! I'm just so over N3 today. I swear.... He says he wants to go to community college and then a university and he can't do that if he's working. Well, welcome to the real world. People do it! I gotta go smoke some weed or something. I can't stand this day! (No I don't smoke!)

P.S. I told him I'm not taking him to the interview for the stupid job and that he needs to continue working at McDonald's. He was talking with me about this whole subject and he thinks he has it all figured out. He's even looking up apartments for me. Ugh.... So now he's upstairs and I'm downstairs. I'm worn out physically and mentally!