I..feel good about myself ,I feel like I have the world at my feet and im strong ,beautifull and a genuine person.I feel very good about myself even though so many things are missing from my life like :friends,a job ,creativity(?) ,a good routine ,being healthy ,and I could go with a few other things on .But I feel good about myself even though im so young (18) and have a lot ahead of ,im just gratefull ,my parents are kinda poor I mean we don’t starve or anything but we live in a small apartament(small like 1 room for us and the rest is bathroom and a kitchen) but with all of these things happening I feel like Im just at the end of my life and im going on these good memories (while in fact I just feel good and Im not going over memories).

I gave up on social media too ,even though that might get me in trouble during these times ,I don’t care !
My mental health is first and everything else is second.

But the reason im posting this here is simple ,im wondering if my subconscious is making me feel like this so I don’t feel pressured by other things?

It’s just a small worry but I think it can make a difference in my future if its something serious.
On another side whenever I go outside im very happy!

Im also very happy at all times and feel good about myself 7.5/10 times 24/24 and so on.

P.S : Don’t know if this is the right topic to post this to.