either way it is, imo, much better to be as honest as possible with her. And with the pdoc. I am being honest with T. I have to decide whether to attempt to get emergency meds and deal with all the questions that I just want to yell "I DON'T KNOW, I just don't want them." and stomp my feet but I can't because I'm an adult. If I move up my appointment that will still be the last appointment and I'll be between pdocs longer.

My T has 20+ years and she's willing to see me both meds or no meds. We went through what would get me hospitalized under her. I think that is going to be an opening conversation for a while. until I memorize it or fully trust her. I didn't have to ask about her talking to my husband because she volunteered that she has never talked to or met my husband.