I'm still not doing well. Just checking in. I'll try to stay off the internet as much as possible.

Hubby shocked me with something out of left field, this morning. He said that maybe we should sell my car and I should give up my driver's license. I'm not even 50 yet. The reasoning is because I've talked to him about how my driving is not really always safe.

My sister emailed me yesterday that my father's first cousin Jeanette just died. The day before, she had sent me an email mentioning one of her old boyfriend's sisters that I used to be friends with. In that same email, she also wrote that "Darlene has cancer and it's spreading". I never responded to that email because I was incredibly upset about Darlene, whom I really like. Yesterday, I asked if she had told our father about Darlene, as well as his cousin Jeanette that just died. That confused her. What happened was that she was referring to one of the sisters of her old boyfriend named "Darlene". I mistook her statement as referring to the Darlene that is my father's first cousin, on his other side of the family. So I had the wrong Darlene in mind. I was thinking "OMG! Two of his first cousins may be lost?!?!" And they were both very close cousins to him. I particularly like Darlene. Yesterday, I was even thinking of emailing my father's cousin Darlene to send get well wishes. That surely would have shocked her, since she is NOT the Darlene dying of cancer. My father lost one of his brothers only last summer.