What am I not trusting in her? That she won't keep doing the same thing over and over? That's the only thing I don't trust her on.

You imagined whatever would be offensive to you. Like I said before, everone has different thresholds of tolerance. It's flirting if I tell you please don't talk to specific people about specific topics, single men about your body, it hurts me. I used to be a drug addict. I think it's funny to still crack jokes about drugs. She's never taken a drug in her life and has expressed to me that it makes her uncomfortable. So I don't talk about drugs when I'm around her. I even stopped smoking cigars altogether, not just around her, because I want her to feel secure. I love smoking cigars, it's a relaxing hobby. So I found another relaxing hobby. No problem. If she is insecure about her body, talk about it with your girlfriends, co-workers, family friends. Talk about it with me. Or if it's so important to chit chat with unrelatable single men, if you would just die without them, talk about coronavirus or elections or football, not your butt or your thighs or your breasts or your even just your beautiful smile.

I am still working with my therapist. I am feeling very impatient right now. I appreciate all your help. You have been helping me alot and I'm sorry that I ranted on you. I hope you aren't offended. I don't know what else to do.