Also, he called me a few days ago to put me on the schedule, but I had to decline bc coronavirus thing hadn't improved. In fact, it got worse. I wasn't able to get my words out though. All I was able to tell him is that I still don't feel safe working and that I'll call him in a few weeks if things improve.

It was only yesterday when I called him that I was able to get my reasoning out. I said a couple weeks ago (I called on April 10th hoping to be back at work by now), I really thought things would be better by now than it actually is. That's why I thought I could work again and that I didn't mean to mislead him. He just said ok thank you. He never asked me how I'm holding up.

Before, I been out of town for just a week (multiple times) and when I returned every time, he would ask me how I've been. Now it's been a month and he doesn't give a damn. He treats my coworkers alot better. He sure as hell never told them he won't ever think of them once.

I've been cursed with a good heart. That's why I'm always inclined to 1)look up to someone 2)care about ppl 3)be nice AF to them. They respond by calling me a creep and obsessed. Ironically, when I'm just a little less nice to others, they react more positively. That's how I treat most people I meet anyway. I wonder how they'll react if I''m a b---- to them. I haven't treated anyone like that yet.