Rose- I totally want to validate you. My addiction issues lie with alcohol but I know the pain of needing a little something to yank you out of pain. For me that was withdrawal and life circumstances. I have been sober since 2012. I too have a small script for pain medicine. Only 1 5mg a day allowed. I barely take it. Does your state have medical MJ? I just got my card and have been twice to a dispensary. I am still learning what works for me but it has helped with pain a lot. I hate inhaling it with a pipe or vape. My husband helped me to hand roll one (my first time ever) and that seemed to be less harsh. Today I am hoping he will help me make cannibutter so I can bake something. Edibles are stronger and take awhile to kick in but they last for a long time and no coughing! In NJ they added more conditons to qualify for it. They added opiate use disorder which is for people that need to come off of opiates but still suffer from pain.