So, today I had a minor argument with my mother which made me realize that she does not think that what my step father did to us was abuse. She wanted me to help him with the business for as long as I was home and I refused. She then said some hurtful things that I don't mind listening to because I know she does not mean them, but listening to them I had this realization. She thinks that what happens in our household is 'normal'. That all fathers are like that (obviously her father was not like mine even though he was strict). What do I do now? My suicidal thoughts had reduced following the psychiatric sessions, but since I cannot have them now because of the lockdown, and with everything that's happening, they are increasing in frequency. And so are my nightmares that I have had since I as 17.